So I decided to bring the computer outside and type on it today. I just left the doctor because I been under a lot of stress. I’m o.k. physically but the stress I’ve been under has made my body react to it in a not so positive way. I keep the worst headaches, I sleep all the time, I have small stomach cramps and my shoulders are so tense that I can’t even turn my head sometimes. Things with ROOSTER and I are o.k. but we are both under a lot of stress due to the economy. Him more so then me and I just want to help but being the man that he is, that’s just out of the question. A post that I had a few weeks ago mentioned something about a SECRET I had for you my readers. Well I can now tell you what it is, ROOSTER has asked me to marry him (EXCITED!!!!), but not as much as I was in the beginning. We are crazy in love with each other but this proposal probably came at one of the worst times cause 2 DAYS LATER he got laid off. Ever since then it’s been nothing but stress for the pair of us. The reason I can talk about the wedding is because I finally told OSWALD about the whole thing. ENTIRELY. He was a little PISSED but oh well. BEYONCE’ put it best and you know what song I’m talking about. I often wondered if I had made the mistake and stayed in the A would have happened. I’m a firm believer that things happen for a reason and everything you go through is just a test to make you better. I think, even if things don’t happen for ROOSTER and me at least he put my faith back into the male race . Thanks for that …….
May 31st 2009
I’m listening to Usher sing about how he would do anything to prove the girl he’s with but he refuses to pay for the mistakes of another man. I get that totally (WOW DEJA VU) I know I haven’t written about this before. Recently I have learned things about a certain fellow that I dated for a long time. I have found pieces to the puzzle I hurt at first but then I put on that Alicia Keys and jumped to number 6 and it didn’t hurt so bad after that. I called one of my very best friends to ask her if it was ok to make it hurt like he hurt me, she was there for the beginning and the end. She never told me I TOLD YOU SO but she help me realized that I learned a VALUABLE lesson. Men are going to show how they feel, forgotten Valentines Day present; late to special dinners you’ve planned for the two of you. I absolutely lost myself in this man. I wasn’t number one to often. YES I’M TALKING ABOUT OSWALD ok I said it and I really don’t care if he reading this. Back to what I was talking about in the beginning, ROOSTER loves me, I had to think o.k. is this a rebound? NOPE had that, do I really love this man, HELL YES I wish everyone could meet him. We were talking the other day about TRUST in our relationship. He asked me was it hard for me to trust men. Thinking about I kinda do trust men but I’m never surprised when they screw up. One things for sure I’ll never make ROOSTER pay for OSWALD mistakes.
Thanks for listening.
Ok so yesterday I was watching an episode of THE CITY and in this episode a rumor floats around about Adam one of the many model characters on the show. He supposedly kissed another girl at a party that his girlfriend wasn’t attending. DRAMA, DRAMA, and more DRAMA. I don’t usually blog about my obsession with reality TV. but I have a point. The girls finally meet each other a party …. Long story short the girls confronted each other. SHE TOLD HER THEN SHE TOLD HIM!
LONG STORY even shorter she believed the boyfriend. I’m so annoyed. One thing that I think I have mastered and continue to develop over the years is my BULLSHIT detector. I don’t understand how this girl couldn’t tell that she was being lied to. I don’t know, I maybe wrong or MTV did a great job of making it look like she was being PLAYED… so I’m single and men try to play me on a daily basis. I hear so many old, tired, smelly, did I say old, lines that it’s sickening.
I’m not complaining. At 28 it’s become a bit entertaining. STORY TIME!!!! Just the other day I was getting my STARBUCKS fix on (I finally found a starbucks 30min away from
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I gave him my number he saved it no harm done I knew he wasn’t gonna call. 20 min later I get a txt from the guy “hey baby I had a great time with you last night you were amazing” WHAT THE F%^$. OMG this guy just told me that he was single and wasn’t seeing anyone. He must of meant right now. Lol
I said all that to say this DON’T GET PLAYED, REMEMBER his eyes are the window to his um you know where.
What kind of person are you when no one is looking. Would you hold the door for a stranger or are you in to much of a hurry to get where you’re going that you let the door slam in their face. When you see a chick in a busted outfit do you snap a picture to blog about it later (GUILTY!!!) or do you tell her “AWESOME BOOTS” . I have had the challenge for this year in 2009 for fix my karma and clear my conscience of all the negative energy that has accumulated over the years. I’ve written letters to old friends to tell them how sorry I was, I’ve told people how I really feel about them , I volunteer on a regular basis and I started thinking about how I say things before I say them and oh my goodness it works. I feel sooooo darn good about myself; I think being here in LALA land is the happiest I’ve been in along time. I have so much quiet me time, reflection time and time to blog even though I have no inspiration. ANYWAY take a good look in the mirror , go ahead, I’ll wait……………… what kind of person do you see well I have my mirror in hand and I love, love, love what I see. DO YOU!!
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